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bubbleworld
10/02/2010-1:07 a.m.
feel the chilly breeze of calming sea salt scent.
thaw the cool palm snuggled in the warm and safe nestle.
close your eyes and listen to the wind speak of quiet rustle in a gentle whisper.
lean over and bask in melodious tranquility.
break the silence with minute interludes.
look, smile, feel.

frozen in time, cemented in memory.

yaya sisterhood.
09/02/2010-5:40 p.m.
i was just reading my sister's blog and i realised just how much i miss her. if she decides to find a job in london and stay wherever she is, and i move along to study elsewhere next year, our lives will never be alongside each other as conveniently as it was before, anymore. ):

husky resonance.
09/02/2010-3:01 p.m.
in the extensive days of old,
i recall the aversive borders of snare and woe; mindfully caving in with manipulative ambush.
i remember the salient blaring sound of the cold acuminous blade against raw stinging flesh.
i remember the piercing affliction of brawl meshed with despondence and anguish after.
i loathe, i despise the days gone by.

adversely, the days of the now, the days of the coming.
i see nothing but blissful felicity and euphoric mirth.
i see the chaste illustration of credulous simplicity.
i see immeasurable magnitude of admirable intimate congruity.
i see a humble accord of immaculate fit.
chronicle every intricate detail of every page of this memoir because this exquisitely alluring tale resounds so much louder than any emblem of the horrid horrid old; so loud that any semblance of the old has been disintegrated into nothing but dust blown a universe away. ill always love the new.

celestial delight.
04/02/2010-11:49 p.m.
in my little world,
i could and I would tie obasan ribbons for a lifetime. :)

-
04/02/2010-12:52 a.m.

do you remember? (:

(:
03/02/2010-3:17 p.m.
to my sexy six.5:

everyone's been pretty busy lately and its been a little harder to meet up now. but i miss you all just as much as always. (: see you on friday i cant wait!

-
03/02/2010-10:48 a.m.
Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reachin’ for the phone ‘cause I can’t fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It’s a quarter after one
I’m all alone
And I need you now
Said I wouldn’t call
But I’ve lost all control
And I need you now
And I don’t know how I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey, can’t stop looking at the door
Wishing you’d come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It’s a quarter after one
I’m a little drunk
And I need you now
Said I wouldn’t call
But I’ve lost all control
And I need you now
And I don’t know how I can do without
I just need you now

Yes I’d rather hurt than feel nothing at all

It’s a quarter after one
I’m all alone
And I need you now

And I said I wouldn’t call,
But I’m a little drunk
And I need you now

And I don’t know how I can do without
I just need you now

I just need you now

Oh baby I need you now

i am quite behind in time but i really like this song.

-
02/02/2010-11:34 p.m.
today was an awesome awesome day. (:

ilma
02/02/2010-4:54 p.m.

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02/02/2010-3:03 p.m.
dont be disheartened, it'll be alright.

-
01/02/2010-6:14 p.m.
"did u just squirrel off?"

haha its subconsciously become so bad that squirrel has even become a verb, specifically specially to describe me.

green pasture
01/02/2010-10:57 a.m.
the only stars you'll see are the gorgeous * * * ones named after you illuminating the pretty dark night sky.

21 and broke and jobless.
29/01/2010-11:38 a.m.
motorbike. (-)
bicycle. (-)
skate scooter (-)
bus fare. (-)
walk. (+)

im gonna bang head and cry now.

):
29/01/2010-11:35 a.m.
yang wo, thanks.

bye bye fairlady, hello cherry qq. (no choice, sorry)

-
29/01/2010-11:34 a.m.
boo i realised i have no job experience at all. other than working at island creamery, relief teaching at scgs and giving tuition and that's it.

fml so dead. ):

byebye!
28/01/2010-4:01 p.m.
hwee, have a good time in spain! (: im gonna miss you alot. im sorry i couldn make it to the airport in time. hugs pls stay safe and healthy there ok? muacks.

haha yucks to some of these photos. but anyway, love you and im gonna miss you! :)

-
28/01/2010-11:24 a.m.
I'm really sorry ):

:D
27/01/2010-1:10 a.m.
i wanna watch valentines day, dear john, new york i love you and the blind side.

:) wheeee.

die or die.
26/01/2010-5:30 p.m.
walk to the right, crash head-on against the hard concrete wall.

walk to the left, ten thousand arrows aimed at your temple.

so what option should you take?

yet i smile with such cheeky resonance. i cannot wait for. :)

circles
26/01/2010-10:28 a.m.
getting lost in never never land.
look around you, what do you see?
unfamiliar faces, undefined routes.
hold a map and start walking.
it doesnt matter where it leads us to. the end will always still be the same.
forever in never never land.

more please
25/01/2010-6:29 p.m.
sun kissed, sea bleached, utter bliss.

head over heels, its been the bestest best.

the pretty number 23; the gorgeous number 2.

sandy toes, muddy soles, picturesque sunset and smiling corals.

paradise - this must be it.
a little slice of heaven and utopia - envelop me with one cool wave overhead.

nothing but breeze and sweet scent lingering in my mouth. feel the gentle massage of comfort; open your eyes to the pearly gates of the grin enough to melt to mush.

its that easy.
18/01/2010-8:58 a.m.
bask in the delight of the morning stretch
roll in the joy of comfort and warmth
sheets of linen smoothed on flesh
open the slits with a simple smile
subtly revealing laughter lines of sheer tranquility

this is why I love such mornings.

keep.
15/01/2010-3:23 p.m.
i know im in good hands.

simple eminence
14/01/2010-12:44 a.m.
caught unaware; gently jostled along.

shoved against the unyielding facade, now envelop quickly with racing trepidation.

the quiet mask of resounding melody begging to burst through the seams.

so swiftly; anything but elegantly.

hidden behind sheer transparency and ignorant conversational exclamations, fingernails clawed; toes curled.

once, twice, always.

this masquerade is just never ever enough.

hi new term.
12/01/2010-12:30 p.m.
"im sure all of you know how to edit photos using a software or two. like photoshop, yes?"
silence.
"then what do all of you use then?"
"paint!"

HAHAHAHA :D

always.
11/01/2010-12:13 a.m.
just meet me halfway (:

infinite
08/01/2010-7:10 p.m.
if battle scars were a risk, would you still fight to win?

in the past, never.
now, always.

talk figures
07/01/2010-12:31 a.m.
and the toot caught my eye. -O-O-

the list.
05/01/2010-5:27 p.m.
selfishly selfless. (:

cryptic queen #2
05/01/2010-11:53 a.m.
why hello new best day.

green.
05/01/2010-2:17 a.m.
its that smile that's worth way more than a million bucks.

spring up a surprise, and then you quietly retreat to an inconspicuous corner, play an inconspicuous role of a photographer or simply a giggling bystander. let the star bask in the awesomest company of close friends and loved ones.

and you stand at one quiet corner and happily look on. and you see that big big big wide smile of sheer joy.

THAT - is all it takes to make your own eyes become slits.

and THAT, is all it takes.

the ride of serenity.
05/01/2010-1:59 a.m.
when i'm eighty two. :)

ecstatic!
03/01/2010-12:52 a.m.
merry christmas and happy new yr everyone (:

goodbye 2009, hello 2010.

so many things to be thankful for, so many things to be happy for.

i used to be so afraid of this thing called change. but 2009's taught me that sometimes without change, you cant find the best fit. without change, you cant grow. without change, you cant chance upon fated coincidences.

i know that 2010 will be a fantastic year.

i cant wait.

stamp chopped.
31/12/2009-2:34 a.m.
almost almost almost almost almost!

oh filler.
28/12/2009-9:23 p.m.
that little slice of paradise.
sum it up to give you that beyond-awesome totality of heaven.

touch it, feel it, hear it, see it, smell it.

it isnt gonna go away so stop trying to bottle up for keepsake. its gonna be abundantly eternal; eternally abundant.

til then,

literally it.
28/12/2009-10:56 a.m.
after today, 4.

exhilarating homerun.

caramel
28/12/2009-10:44 a.m.
a phonecall is all it takes.

road
27/12/2009-2:56 a.m.
like a fat kid after candy,

ill finish a marathon to reach to the goal any day.

-
26/12/2009-2:32 a.m.
the predisposition of correct or incorrect mix and match.

once upon a time, who was crowned with the autonomy to decide on this definition to begin with? originality of seemingly stupendous force of nature - it had to be birthed somewhere, no?

toys
26/12/2009-2:17 a.m.
this festive season is such a busy busy one (:

24th: family dinner at sun with moon, countdown with sexy six at loof @ odeon towers
25th: dinner with x and g, karaoke with parents.
supposed to go for nick's house party and/or rayner's house party (sorry couldnt make it!)
26th: dinner at godma's house and then gathering with ac people.
27th: lunch with aunty joanne and bunch.
28th: lunch with angeline before she flies back to aussie, and dinner with pam to collect stuff.
29th: FREEEEEEE yay!
30th: wakeboarding in the day, dinner with chris and bunch at night.
31st: reena's party, ac party, sexy six countdown. (i dont know how this is gonna happen :o thankfully godma and the rest will be in langkawi this year so that's one less gathering to worry about)

and then goodbye 2009, hello 2010. :)

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almost always, i wish i was smaller.

home
25/12/2009-12:43 p.m.
Hello world
Hope you're listening
Forgive me if I’m young
For speaking out of turn
There’s someone I’ve been missing
I think that they could be
The better half of me
They’re in their own place trying to make it right
But I’m tired of justifying
So i say you’ll

Come home
Come home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I’ve ever known
So come home

I get lost in the beauty
Of everything i see
The world ain’t as half as bad
As they paint it to be
If all the sons
If all the daughters
Stopped to take it in
Well hopefully the hate subsides and the love can begin
It might start now..Yeahh
Well maybe I’m just dreaming out loud
Until then

Everything i can’t be
Is everything you should be
And that’s why i need you here
Everything i can’t be
Is everything you should be
And that’s why i need you here
So hear this now

YUMS.
24/12/2009-2:43 a.m.
i had the world's best profiteroles with vanilla ice cream and chocolate sauce today, paired with the nicest oreo milkshake with the perfect consistency and sweetness.

where to find them? too bad, you'll never.

dieee
22/12/2009-1:02 p.m.
when things go wayward,
let it go.

let's.
20/12/2009-1:52 p.m.
hey you,

welcome to my playground. :)

such.
20/12/2009-2:55 a.m.
every piece fits like a puzzle,
and a masterpiece is framed.

every piece so perfectly cut with intricate fineness. every outward curve to an inward indent. every corner to a corner.so perfectly planned; so neatly locked together at the cardboard seams.

the masterpiece divides to make up the individual pieces.
the pieces connected to form the masterpiece.

like a circle with no end; like a sphere with no corners. no matter how you fix it, no matter how you turn it, it's just always been meant to be this way and always will be.

:) :(
19/12/2009-11:28 p.m.

the parade.
19/12/2009-8:50 p.m.
the voice of the secondary.
inevitably bouncing off the walls of hollow depth. the voracious appetite for a deviant showcase.

so what if there are shadows lurking in the dark,
maybe some with a graphic flash or two.

could you care less? or would you dodge for shade.

the sinister smiles plastered over the gaping facial holes writhing with sinful vomit. even if its enough to kill and destroy? - would you introduce or shove away.

without a doubt, ill gladly stay.

propriety. deal or die.
18/12/2009-6:16 a.m.
stamp-chopped: property of chare.

in open fields of wild flowers
16/12/2009-4:59 p.m.
two sets of footprints.
come, walk along now.
can u see the end of the road ahead?
well, i cant.
so keep going because there's still a long long way to go-
if there is even ever an end to begin with.

everything will always be alright, rockabye.

(:
15/12/2009-8:13 a.m.
in the land of the english.

of bangers and mash.
of fish and chips.
of fuzzy bear hats.
of red buses and phone booths.
of modern ancient modern ancient.
of infinite plays and movie premieres.
of soccer fanatics.
of 1pm beer culture.
of literal tube names.
of comforting accented english.
of grumpy of friendly.

i love london. so simple yet so full of colour.

ps: the london premiere for sherlock holmes was at leicester square just now. so gwen stefani, gavin rossdale, jude law, guy ritchie, rachel mcadams, robert downey jr were all there haha!

heart.
12/12/2009-1:31 p.m.
somehow, everything will always be alright. :)

somewhere along the way i faltered and i ought to be hung upside down and caned. but instead, you so graciously conceded to my lifetime incarceration of infinite joy.

:) thank you for being so nice.

heaven.
12/12/2009-6:43 a.m.
fly me up to where you are
beyond the distant star
i wish upon tonight
to see you smile
if only for awhile
to know you're there
a breath away's not far
to where you are.

bonjour!
06/12/2009-8:22 p.m.
bye bye singapore, hello europe!

hello again

london

paris

luzerne

and many more places hehe im so excited!!

anddddddd,
one disk a day. (:

whenever
03/12/2009-11:19 a.m.
run to me.

life.
02/12/2009-11:56 p.m.
rooted to the ground, i watch the carousel spin. it goes round and round and round and round; a globe of copious hue.

it never seems to come to a halt. it never stops oscillating around its rotund pivot.

the nonchalance of the amateur vertical jockeying, the incessantly resounding chants oozing with unceasing amusement.

the reflective glass framed with burning bulbs, tinted with a spectrum of violet and sapphire. hoist that arm with alluring vivacity.

now gradually descending in motion; it comes to a stop. the smile ungraciously sinks into a frown.
race to the button to set it back in gear; the circumference densely picks up speed. bit by bit by bit.
and i somberly inch back to the initial spot and watch the carousel advance in swift circular acceleration.
it goes round and round and round and round and round and round.

please dont stop again.

height.
02/12/2009-3:57 p.m.
fall slowly.

deeper and deeper down this bottomless vessel of infinite serenity.

close your eyes, lift your chin and spread your arms.

can you smell the crisp smell of sweet tranquility?

taste the ease of the melodious monotone.

caress my cheeks with wild tenderness, cup my face with gentle security.

dont be afraid, just let go.

just fall slowly and come on home.

throw away mayo and raw greens with me.
02/12/2009-12:07 a.m.
for a lifetime. :)

somber solitude.
30/11/2009-8:21 p.m.
the deep bottomless intensity of fear, that incomprehensible trepidation, the never ending gush of large giant teardrops, the choking sensation so ready to devour you completely, the clenching of fists so tight the fingernails dig a deep impression onto the flesh of the wet sweaty palms, the hold of the arms around so so tight.

please please please
just never ever again.

sexy six: nothing would be the same without you. i love you. thank you so much.

recital.
27/11/2009-2:37 p.m.
no frills, no cryptic messages.

i just love you.

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to my precious sexy six,

*E**S! -_-

(welcome home shiny)